Tuesday, January 31, 2012

navigating our way 'through'

she wrote about her friend who lost her mom. 

she knows the feelings all too well, since having been through it just a little while back with her own mom.

this is how we connected.  or rather how i contacted her. 

i read her blog and she was talking about her feelings of losing her mom.  i cried all night that night knowing that i too would some day soon be navigating through my own journey of my mom's illness.... she recounted her mixed emotions of love and anger and grief for the loss, and yes, also relief for a parent who has had to endure pain and sickness for so long.  so utterly bitter sweet.     

i instantly felt connected to her.  she knew how it felt.  she had made it 'through', as difficult as it was, she made it 'through'.   and that was just what i needed to hear.  if she could make it through, well then, so could i. i wasn't going to fall apart.  and my world wouldn't come crashing down around me.  i could and would make it 'through' too.

(my mom's recent scare in the hosptial a week ago)

i sent her an email.  and she was very kind to reply back and offer an abundance of love and support.  it was serendipidious that i would meet her that same fall at SQUAM ART WORKSHOPS.  i love the way she's there for her friends.  and even for those she barely knows, and yet she reaches out to comfort, despite going through her very own pain.  i think she is a rather incredible being.  i just wanted her, and you dear blog reader to know that.

and dear blog reader, if you are also navigating your way through the loss a loved one, know you are not alone.  there are people out here in blog-o-sphere who will listen.  and understand.  you just have to reach out.

i dedicate this piece i very recently created ,  'she kept them close to her heart', to both her and her friend.

sending lots of light, love, and prayers for a peaceful heart to her friend.


Saturday, January 28, 2012


Hand made journals, new, in my shop. Made by me!!! Please click on the image above to come visit me.... Enjoy!!!

Squeaaaaalllllllllll....  so excited. This has been a goal of mine for a very long time now.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

an airy aquarian

january is my birthday month.  yes, i'm an aquarian.  to a tee. 

can't believe it's january again....  i remember my last birthday like it was yesterday.  how is it that time seems to just literally whiz by. 

me right now.

this saturday i'll officially be 41 years old.  yet somehow my brain refuses to believe this.  when someone asks me how old i am, my brain always wants to say 26.  i still feel like a kid despite having 'adult' responsibilities, home, job, kids, hubby, bills to pay etc..  it's crazy. 

and yet, when i attempt to sketch out my portrait, i manage to age myself about 20 years.  go figure.

happy birthday to all my fellow aquarians out in blogosphere...xoxx

Monday, January 23, 2012

1. charcoal portrait, 2. trying to understand, 3. pre-landscape of my life, 4. post-landscape of my life, 5. WIP step one sketch, 6. charcoal and white pastel, 7. what i've learned so far, 8. practice joy

i haven't posted for a few weeks.  a lot has been going on.  i've been drained emotionally and physically.  the only thing keeping me sane is open studio workshop.  keeping my brain and my hands busy through it all. 

hoping life gets back to 'normal' soon. 

a more full update soon.