Thursday, June 30, 2011


if you're an aquarian, can you feel the changes in the air, because i can. 

i can even smell it. 

some good, some bad.  you know it when you dream of end-of-the-world kind of dreams; when there's a hint of excitement or buzz in your body but you're not sure why; and when there is a lunar or solar eclipse in your natal chart,

as per Susan Smith of astrology zone, here are the descriptions of a lunar and solar eclipse:

A solar eclipse occurs when the moon stands between the Sun and the Earth, cutting off the light of the Sun. A solar eclipse is always a new moon and in astrology tends to mark new beginnings.

A lunar eclipse occurs when the Earth stands between the moon and the Sun, cutting off the light of the Sun from the moon. A lunar eclipse is always a full moon and usually marks endings or culmination points. They bring up memories, dreams, and emotions, so they often pack a big punch.

particularily for aquarians, she says,

"Eclipses are super-powerful new moons and full moons, action packed, as if operating on steroids. Their job is to move you out of a complacent situation into one that is much more energized and active. An eclipse will do whatever it must to get you moving. It may give you surprising information, a sudden new opportunity, a disillusioning experience - something to shake you up and make you look at the world with new eyes.

Eclipses are also famous for providing crystal clear truth, and when you get that extra piece of information, it changes everything. They help us to evolve into a new level of maturity and insight, and for the information they do bring, be grateful, for it is given by a loving universe to protect you. "

i am getting bombarded on so many fronts that it's making my head spin (like in the exorcist kinda way).  holy smokes, how much can one girl handle all at once.  suffice to say, my brain hurts from all the brain activity that i've had to put on overtime these last couple of weeks.   

chages in the home, work, personal, health, yadda yadda yadda.  universe, please stop throwing me curve balls.  please.  although i'm an aquarian i still like my routines.  they keep me grounded and in touch with reality.  and it gives me the confidence to go out and do my thing. 

and in staying in line with the 'changes' theme,  here are some of the changes a portrait has gone through these last few weeks.  painting is my escape.  it's a great way to unload all that energy out of my head and onto the canvas.  what an incredible release of emotion and expression.  painting does wonders for my sanity.  smile.

so, being the stubborn head that i am, i attempted one image first with acrylics and, um, not so good.  so i tried it again in acrylics.  um.  better but still not so good.  so tried the same image a third time.  this time not on canvas but on watercolour gesso'd board.  and to shake it up, this time i used my beloved, go to, shiva paint stiks.  and here i'm at least brave enough to show you #3:

and yes.  i think i like her. i like her very much.  dearest shivas.  i don't know why i'm resisting and insisting on learning to paint with acrylics.  even when you never let me down.

just an aquarian trying to conquer the world, and stay sane in the process. 
hugs and hopes for a peaceful day,

Monday, June 6, 2011

i have a dream

me at work (iphone, instagram app.)

i've been having all kinds of dreams lately.  good dreams.  dreams that are new to me which are catching me off guard.  i'm feeling a shift in my heart and mind with regards to my children, my home, the way we live our life.  this is going to come out all garbled because i haven't had much time to process it all... and if you know me, i need to dwell and process things before i can make any sense out of them. 

i'm starting to think this is what a mid-life crisis feels like. 

i have dreams of no longer living in the city.  i want a quiet life on a farm in the outskirts of the city, with a couple of free roaming chickens, a pig, and hey maybe even a goat or sheep. 

i have dreams of being a stay-at-home mom.  i want to pick my children up from school, and make their lunches. i no longer want to have to worry about daycare, and nannies and wonder what they're doing at any time of the day.  are they being loved, are they being cared for, are they having fun, have they eaten. 

i'm feeling emotional and kinda-wobbly and kinda-off-kilter, for lack of better words.  my compass is skewed and i'm not really sure if i should make that left turn.  or if it'll make any difference.

all this emotion.  why?  sparked by a new search for a nanny.  our beloved dearhearts daycare is closing and the fear of making the 'wrong' choice, or better yet, the pressure to make the 'right' choice.

Friday, June 3, 2011

finally found my way back here

well let's see, what have i been up to lately:

first, look what arrived on my doorstep on May 27th.  Unfurling, by Misty Mawn.

i've been in heaven devouring this beauty. can't. put. i. down.  meanwhile the kids are running in the house wild, jumping off tables and blind-folding the dog!! 

there's just so much beauty in this book i find it hard to put down.  what i love most about Unfurling is that it entices you and lures you into all kinds of ways to be creative that i hadn't thought about:  creating stamps, using paper clay, oragami, in addition to drawing, painting, collage.  but it only gives you so much info that you can't help but scope out more info..  i love that.

second, look what we got! 

dom bought if for us so that when i go to squam i don't have to lug my laptop with me.  this little baby does it all in it's little compact form.  love. love. love. it.

lastly, speaking of squam.  i'm so utterly excited to go to my first art retreat.  i've made this journal to take with me.  hoping to use it as a 'year book' type journal to get the artists i meet to sign my book for posterity sake.  and to journal in to keep me busy.  here's a little peek of the cover.. not yet done, still have to add the lace to it.

btw, if you're not already using the 'free' instagram iphone application, what are you waiting for??  lol

i just found a list of items i should be bringing:   insect spray, warm socks, good hiking shoes, warm undies for night time cause it gets cold, flashlight cause it's a long dark walk from the sleeping cabin to the workshop cabins (eeks hate HATE the dark), snacks, coffee mug...  if you've been to squam art workshops in the fall, i'd love to know if i've missed anything..  now gotta think up some ideas for making some little giveaways at squam.. 

HAPPY WEEKEND friends!!!  it's FRIDAY, i'm in love...